There was a party. There was a fight. The next morning, Sam s best friend, Hayden, was dead. And all he left Sam was a playlist of songs and a suicide note: For Sam listen and you ll understand. To figure out what happened, Sam has to rely on the playlist and his own memory. But the more he listens, the more he realizes that his memory isn t as reliable as he thought. And it might only be by taking out his earbuds and opening his eyes to the people around him that he ll finally be able to piece together his best friend s story. And maybe have a chance to change his own.

Part mystery, part love story, and part coming-of-age tale in the vein of The Perks of Being a Wallflower and The Spectacular Now, Michelle Falkoff s debut novel is an honest and gut-wrenching first novel about loss, rage, and what if feels like to outgrow a friendship that s always defined you and the struggle to redefine yourself.